Total music for a wholesome person...

J.S.Bach seemed to want something very practical when he composed "The Well-Tempered Clavier". He did ingeniously make some key arrangements that were rarely favored by other composers. I have attempted only the C minor BWV 847, the key signature I always found intriguing, especially when comparing to its counterpart--C major (always the voice of masculine justice!). However I feel his C minor Clavier is professing in a stern manner, or maybe it is more like an unyielding stride against the gravity. Our protagonist exposes human weakness physically but never give in to the tension. At last, when the string is suddenly dissolved, Bach must really want us to keep "well-tempered" so the inertia will not destroy the "adagio"...

The "complimentary" Fuge is charming, smoothly dismembering the construction. The substructures seem to reveal, but under close scrutiny we realize they are more intertwined than what we comprehend from the Clavier...

I don't even want to talk about dichotomy, or the illusion of an being or a state. On the stool I subject myself to a hearing influenced by all other senses--fingertips generating spheres with keys, heart beating to the tune...Now what I can only write is the insecurity and fear of knowing how surreal is the little world I have musically inhabited in. Bach just made the confrontation more imminent.

So for once I am going to give myself a jab of anesthetic to ensure I can sanely continue deciphering that cosmic perfection of Bach. I used to care about how my music affect others. Nonsense. Inspiration from my performance? Non-existent. I don't care whether you understand my Bach or Chopin because the "grace" inherently may not be mediated (and I sound like a knight of faith..)

Nothing is more important to me than the consciousness of each of my fingers. As for the audience, saying "i'm lovin'it" is more than enough.

2010 Wishes...

Wish a splendid year ahead

for Id:

Ayn Rand

Hermann Hesse

Jean-Paul Sartre

JP Morgan

Friedrich Nietzsche

Romain Rolland

Virginia Woolf

William Blake

for it:

Beethoven: Appassionata, Mondscheinsonata, Der Sturm

Chopin

Debussy: Clair de lune

Warsaw Concerto

Mozart

To be:

Lake Walden

Met Opera

Carnegie Hall

To...?

a gramophone ^^

the list should be and will be updated...